This thought below from George MacDonald may not seem to be restful, but it truly is – if God Almighty is also your Great Shepherd. The scripture tells us “all we like sheep have gone astray”…and several more times than this we are likened to these willful, stupid, helpless creatures. I have known myself to be just that. I am prone to wander. I am weak. I need guidance and protection from me! These are necessary things to understand about yourself.
“Man has a claim on God, a divine claim for any pain, want, disappointment, or misery that will help to make him what he ought to be. He has a claim to be punished, and to be spared not one pang that may urge him toward repentance; yea, he has a claim to be compelled to repent; to be hedged in on every side, to have one after another of the strong, sharp-toothed sheep-dogs of the Great Shepherd sent after him, to thwart him in any desire, foil him in any plan, frustrate him of any hope, until he comes to see at length that nothing will ease his pain, nothing make life a thing worth having, but the presence of the living God within him; that nothing is good but the will of God; nothing noble enough for the desire of the heart of man but oneness with the eternal. For this God must make him yield his very being, that He himself may enter in and dwell with him.”